Art by ArtDoge Been feeling the Blizzard bug nibbling at me lately. As much as I would love to dive back into Azeroth and prepare for the new expansion to
World of Warcraft, there are a lot of things I need to take care of in the real world first. Things have been quiet on the YouTube channel (save for someone having fun with the dislike buttons - you go, whomever you are! *big grin*); despite picking up a new microphone and finally getting Balthazar in a running condition, I haven't produced a new video for the last couple of weeks. This past week was a six-day workweek, and I've been having bouts of insomnia every night of it, yet haven't had much energy to be overly productive outside of work. Hooray! I'm depressed again! There are times when depression leaves one with enough energy and motivation to go about some basic tasks - feeding myself, taking a shower, getting to and from work, being on my game
at work, etc - but beyond that, one has very little in terms of both of those things. There are others when victims of depression don't even have those to go on, and I've certainly had my bouts of building a blanket fort and curling up inside. But this is not one of those times. This depression, be it the usual pervasive mix of hindsight and contrition, or seasonally affected, is merely a setback. Likewise, losing yet another home, having my car sit in a non-street legal state, and playing perpetual waiting games with potential oaths of upward motion are all merely setbacks. I'll keep doing everything I'm able every day. I'll find a new rhythm. I'll move to a place of my own. I'll return to writing fiction, to vlogging, to streaming
Hearthstone, to truly loving life. I'll learn to cope with my moods and th
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